Inviting our Demons for Tea

Hello my dear loves!

As we inch ever-closer to the end of the first month of January 2022, I find myself reminiscing on where my life has been and where I am going. I have had the honor of working with a number of you wonderful, iconic beings either as a direct coach, in a workshop or master class setting, for a meditation, or even in life, outside of my role as a coach and guide.

In fact, thanks to all of this I have my last day at my day job in two days, on February 1st, 2022.

From that moment forward I will be fully in the role of Transformational Life Coach and Spiritual Guide.

Every action I take from then on will be defined my conscious decision to be a being of service, and walk the path of the Bodhisattva.

So, naturally.

I freaked the fuck out.

I have done a lot of healing in my life. And I can very gladly say that I am no longer living with chronic mental health conditions.

But the journey to enlightenment means that old Karmic debt will try to exhaust itself at the right moment.

Each time something happens that can be considered “terrible” or “awful” or each time the mind goes through a state of fight, flight, freeze, or fawn, it is old Karmic debt from this lifetime or previous lifetimes exhausting itself.

I grew up in a culture and society that proclaimed getting the 9-5 corporate job, with the 401k, the insurance plan, and the stock options was the most ideal way to live.

Yet there I was spending 40 hours a week, day in and day out, feeling drained and miserable.

Quitting that job to create an abundance and open up myself to more opportunities should have lead to immediate relief!

So, why did I scream?

Why did I cocoon myself into a blanket ball and binge a great many episodes of comforting Sitcoms and tv shows, and try to hide away from the world?

Because I had an important fucking lesson to learn, honey!

You see, the old me, the conditioned self would have beat myself up for those behaviors. I would have criticized myself for quitting this secure job, then criticized myself for criticizing myself, all while torturing myself with how I stopped being productive.

And not to say those voices didn’t come up my loves, because they definitely did!

However, now because of this path I am on, a new voice arose, one that was more powerful, loving, caring, compassionate, and iconic.

Whenever I felt “distress” this one asked “How can I serve you?”

Whenever I wanted to run away, this one asked “What are you afraid of?”

Whenever I felt like sobbing my eyes out, this one said “Let these emotions run their course.”

We spend much of our lives racked with guilt, regretting and lamenting “what was and what wasn’t” all the while cursing that we are not “where we should be.”

This is our brain’s natural inclination to protect us. When we have been conditioned from young ages to always strive for more, and more, and more, we are never satisfied with what is.

Yet, through healing I learned this undeniable fact:

My Inner Demons, My Inner Critic, My shadows, are all manifestations of my wounded inner child.

When the Historical Buddha, Siddhartha meditated under the Bodhi tree, it is said that he was tempted by the demon Mara with beautiful women, and threatened with an army of monsters.

Mara is a manifestation of our greatest fears, our most destructive desires, and our ignorance of our highest selves: That we are Innately Good, and always enough.

Rather than combatting Mara, resisting, challenging, or fighting, the Buddha said “I see you Mara” and invited them for tea.

This is the best, and only way to face the challenges that arise within ourselves.

There is the saying, “what we resist, persists” and if I spent time resisting the crunchy, sticky feelings inside myself, or fighting the thoughts I was getting hooked on, I would only get hooked more.

I had to remember, that the Mara within me was ultimately a manifestation of my deepest fears, and they were my inner child throwing a temper tantrum.

So instead, I invite Mara to tea. I sit with the discomfort of these feelings, and I honor my inner demons and let them know that we are safe, secure, and recognize that these feelings will also pass.

As usual my darlings, I hope this resonated with you! If you particularly liked it please share it on your socials and tag friends so we can grow our community of self-healing, Authentic Alchemists!